You a King,
Always waiting ,
For a welcome
To hearts,
Whether poor or rich.
You walked on earth,
And still here,
Open my eyes
And heart
To your presence.
Time stands still,
To your Majesty,
Sun and moon,
Bow to your omnipresence
Past, present, and future ,
In unison.
Who am I
To be lavished
With love ,
Renewed every morn ?
Thank you Lord.
Who is Biggy?
My blog today is on a little dog, abandoned earlier, who made a BIG impression on many .
He is about 12 years in age; Black in colour and of poodle mix. But his eyes catch my eye .
Annie and Mike, his rescuers, say he is partially blind. I saw him with trimmed fur. He was half his size when they got him . His daily sustenance was from a dump, where he befriended a gang of cats. He was very sick with infection .
However Annie and Mike have doted over him. With care, visits to the vet, and good food , he has recovered .
How could someone abandon him?
He was the star of our evening visit . His survival is a miracle. He stayed at the dump for six months , Now he has three cots . And lives in style . He responded to us so well .
Biggy’s day begins at 6.30am . He will nudge Annie to wake up for his drink of water. He then goes back to sleep and wakes up later at 11.30 am for the rest of his day . Well then, that sounds like quite a retired life .
We did not hear his bark. But let any delivery man appear, and Biggy barks his loudest .
A neighbour always thought that Biggy was a cat from afar. You can imagine his shock to hear Biggy’s bark.
I was so happy when Biggy came to me and posed for a picture . Yes, he is a Poser, and so affectionate.
My memory of him, are his beautiful eyes, when he wished me good bye!
If only he could talk.
Thanks Biggie , you made my day!
Look around and reflect ,
Who can stop you
From thinking,
speaking and
Doing the right thing ?
Can any law stop
You from loving
Even your enemy
Who may one day
Become a friend !
Yes and my soul ;
Can any man destroy
That which God holds
In his loving arms !
Our Creator who gives life and also sends to hell fire
So am I willing to see that
My soul is meant for an eternal goal,
Eternal joy or eternal slavery
Heaven or hell!
Perfect love casteth out fear
Love always overcomes hate!
Love gives life !
Then you and I are truly FREE!
‘May I write a blog on you” I asked Carole Viegas when she visited me a month ago. Her immediate response was, ” I’d rather you don’t ” More like, I enjoy being the person who I am, and do not want any publicity.
On Friday 19th July 2019, I had attended the Eucharist and was due to visit the housebound with Holy Communion. As I commenced on my rounds, I thought of a few questions I would ask Carole on my visit to her home. …mainly for the intended blog on her,
I reached the neighbourhood and realized something was amiss at the Viegas household. I went up to her home. The silent group of people assembled with her husband Gerry, was enough to signal that Carole had already departed to her heavenly home.
Carole was always more concerned about Gerry’s health, both being cancer survivors. However she displayed tremendous courage and joie de vivre. Her daughter Gayle mentioned “ Mum was quite upset when first diagnosed; but I encouraged her to be brave and battle it out. And she did heed that advice to be positive, and outgoing as before. In fact her peaceful departure while asleep, was certainly a victory for her. It was more heart related , rather than the cancer.”
Two days before her demise , I met her in the neighbourhood. She was returning from the Bombay Institute for the Deaf and Dumb , where she worked to get donors involved.Her initial involvement was with the Board of the Institute. It was also her 75th birthday the previous week and I was so happy to wish her well. She lived life to the fullest.
In our Village of Matharpacady, she was one of the most active residents. She was President of the Holy Cross Committee. We did not realise that The Holy Cross Feast on 1st May 2019 would be her last. We will miss the Meetings at her home before and after the feast. She also served as an animator of the Parish Zone 8 and earlier on the Parish Council of Rosary Church. But her notable contribution in the Church was her passion to sing in the choir. You could never miss seeing Carole for the mass choir, specially at the main feasts of Christmas and Easter. Most of all when people needed a choir for a funeral, it did not matter who it was..she would always pitch in to help in the matter.
Her special attribute was to be an ‘Encourager’. I say special, as she made it a point to find something good to say about any service done by people. Being a beneficiary of it myself, I know how she has impacted many. Carole was very loving and had no malice. She always strove for unity and went out of her way to overcome any differences. She could connect with people of all ages. At meetings she shared her opinion without ruffling feathers .
I remember the early family days, when Carole’s home was full of life. There were parties, and songs floated into the night. She and Gerry were good dancers. I think their jive was so relaxed that it looked as easy as ever. An important event earlier was the celebration of their Golden Wedding . It was a very joyous occassion and well attended. Yes indeed , she was richly blest.
I was amazed to see the church filled beyond capacity at her funeral mass. She had touched the lives of so many, who came specially to bid her farewell . Carole’s granddaughter Keira sang a beautiful hymn ‘Be Not Afraid’ , to reiterate that spirit of courage. Eulogies flowed from her children , grandchildren , and extended family. Her grandchildren Maya and Neel, recalled how she told them stories of the yesteryears and always encouraged them in their endeavours. Ignatius read out a message from her cousin Rosalind. Jordana her godchild, spoke lovingly about Carole. Even her former office colleague Marisa, shared some beautiful memories of her.
Her son Garth mentioned that this was a celebration of her life well lived. Yes , and the family did followup with this emotion at the end of the day. They bid her farewell that night the way she would have wanted , with joy and song.
Farewell dear Carole…… May you rest in eternal peace with our Heavenly Father.
Suzette Advani
Have you entered a home with 22 dogs barking their welcome to you .
It’s a home on the slope of a hill giving you a distant and picturesque view of Goa with rivers lakes and lush greenery .
We were received by Alcina,into the spacious home, for our meeting with Suzette. My daughter Annalize had been called for the trial of her wedding gown.
“When a client walks in, a human being walks in first, and before I lend them my hands I win their hearts . “
This is the motto of Suzette as Designer. For Annalize , the lace and material for her gown was just right ; the designing and fit most suited for the bride. Suzette works with passion to give her best .
However she is also an artiste, poet, author of short stories and has a non funded NGO for stray and abandoned dogs . But most of all a very compassionate person.
I saw some beautiful paintings, each of which has a meaning. I was surprised to learn that it had taken 2-3 years of deep life experiences , 2 month’s to put down a feature and 2-3 days to paint . In like manner, Suzette writes poetry and short stories .
Her pet project is really the pets she has rescued . When she refers to the universal opinion of the good breed of dogs over stray dogs ….she opines that dogs are just dogs , and love makes a difference in their response . She continues “ But who am I to preach the gospel of universality; idealised I am just an artiste who was designed to create art and not change the policies of the world .”
She has rescued 22 stray and abandoned dogs . The first was named Thomas ; he had fallen off a bridge and fractured his spine. She has nursed him to good health . All 22 pets have been rescued in some way and restored to normalcy… each of them having a name. The most recent pet was named ‘Blue’ as he has blue eyes. He is so affectionate, and kept licking my feet all over.
She also daily feeds 30 stray dogs outside who patiently wait at specific points as she drives on the food trail.
Suzette is a survivor of a serious motor crash , but was at peace even then. She has no regrets of any kind and believes that life is transient . She has a deep sense of spirituality. Her daily discipline includes yoga.
“I am ready for the call when it comes “ says Suzette.
So ended the encounter with a courageous lady of myriad dimensions.
My Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ has been a pillar of strength and peace, during the past 6 months of a rollercoaster ride. The storms of life blew over but his presence was enough to see me through this phase.
Between September and November 2018 , I drove to Goa several times with Anjean, to prepare for our daughter Annalize’s wedding, Goa being the venue.
However in November I began to have a throat problem , which did not get cured with antibiotics . As the problem persisted , I consulted a specialist who observed a small mass on the tonsil during the oral examination. Subsequently , he advised that a biopsy be done, which led to the early diagnosis of Non Hodgekins Lymphoma. Dr Jaquie was very helpful at the Hinduja Hospital, from that first instance as well as during my regular hospital visits for the chemotherapy later.
In November I also got a shock to know that my investments with our trusted broker were in jeopordy , as his business had failed. His promise to repay everything , would remain a promise until he hoped to recover, by merging his company with a bigger firm, in the near future.
I was diagnosed on 13th December 2018 , and Annalize’s wedding was scheduled for 27th December 2018. The doctor calmed us , specially Anjean and Annalize, and mentioned that the early diagnosis was very helpful and the cancer could be treated and cured ( a blessing indeed). He advised us to celebrate the wedding and commence my treatment soon after.
However due to the urgency and financial duress, I was constrained to take loans to meet with these challenges.
My son Ralph , was a big help at this stage. He had come down from London for the wedding. All my family proceeded to Goa which was the venue . He stayed back to help me with my visits to the hospitals and so much more. I admired his steadfast approach , not knowing that he was quite upset himself.
Our celebrations in Goa went off very well. The Lord had given me a total acceptance of my health condition. I took part wholeheartedly in the celebrations. My family too got over the initial shock and all went well .
We returned to Mumbai on 1st January 2019 and my treatment commenced on 2nd January 2019.
For every session , I was admitted to the hospital , to be administered the drugs. The specialist doctor and his team, and the nursing care, was excellent. The after effects of the chemotherapy, were at times very painful. Surprisingly during 3 specific occasions Romeo Fernando, leader of the Community of the Good Shepherd, telephoned me. He prayed fervently with me , pleading of the Lord for my healing ; and with God’s grace I was relieved from pain. His intercessory group prayed regularly for my healing. I cannot forget my mentor Ken Knoecker ( Elder of the Servants of the Word) , for all the prayer and support extended to me, during this time. I also discovered , the aspect of sharing my suffering with the Lord, and interceding for others.
Members from my Community (Community of Jesus: Light of the World) and the local Church and Communities ( Sword of the Spirit Communities) from far and near prayed for me. There was an outpouring of love as members regularly telephoned or visited me, and also prayed with me. People who I hardly knew as well as old friends, assured me that they were praying for my healing and visited me.
My eldest daughter Karen with her family from UK, specially changed their flight schedule, ( which involved a fresh ticket) to be with us for the first session. Subsequently my son Ralph took time off , for one month from his job in London ( while working from home) to be with us in Mumbai for the next sessions. Annalize too spent more than a month later and finally Larissa was with us in May.
I was administered 6 cycles of chemotherapy from January to April, and after the 4th cycle , the petscan showed that I was clear of cancer. Praise and thanks to God!
This was a time of great restoration and renewal. I had plenty of time to pray and read scripture. Importantly , Ambrose our community member brought Holy Communion for me daily, which was a source of healing and kept me positive and courageous.
Aroon willingly took up responsibility to lead the Community of Jesus: Light of the World , in my absence during these months. His numerous visits were an indication of a brotherly tie, which I deeply cherish.
I also saw bonds of brotherhood within my extended family being renewed. My two elder brothers, Allwyn and Gerald who are doctors, and my niece Joanne (also a doctor) , reached out to me in significant ways.
Anjean cared for me so well . Diet and medicines were constantly monitored. So I came through these months peacefully. Dane, a young man from the Youth group , was kind enough to drive us to the hospital on several occasions . Some of my community members also took time off to be with me at the hospital. But Anjean was my constant companion.
In the meantime , help poured in from various sources. I am truly overwhelmed at this support.
God showed me His love , through these brothers and sisters.
He also assured me that His provision is enough
A few days ago , when again I experienced a setback, I was assured by the following words from scripture:
‘Give us this day our daily bread ‘( Matthew 6:11)
( on further reflection and study, I was led to believe that daily bread is for daily sustenance and not to accumulate wealth. Bread also signifies the Eucharist ,which is life giving.)
A little further :
‘ No one can be slave of two masters; he will either hate the first and love the second, or treat the first with respect and the second with scorn. You cannot be the slave both of God and of money.’ ( Matthew 6: 24)
Matthew 6:25-34
‘ Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you are to eat and what you are to drink, (Matthew 6:25a)………..‘But strive first for the kingdom of God and his righteousness and all these things will be given to you as well.’ ( Matthew 6: 33)
Isaiah 55: 1-3
‘ Oh, come to the water all you who are thirsty;
Though you have no money , come!
Buy corn without money, and eat,
and, at no cost , wine and milk.
Why spend money on what is not bread,
your wages on what fails to satisfy?
Listen, listen to me, and you will have good things to eat
and rich food to enjoy.
Pay attention , come to me;
listen, and your soul will live.
listen , and your soul will live.’ (Isaiah 55: 1-3)
The Lord has revealed his love and care so much more during these days. He is truly my Saviour and Healer and I can trust in his provision daily.
For this I say “Thank you Lord”
And “ thank you” to every person who has reached out to me.
The blur of the past
Sustains the present
So I presume,
A storehouse of
good memories
And junked failures
Pray
Are these stepping stones
To a bright future ?
Can we bask
only in success;
And dismiss failures ?
Who can fathom the future
Except the One who is Timeless
His Presence sustains
Past, Present and future
A Gift to be cherished
Forever
He is the Alpha and the Omega
The beginning and the end
Who holds us in the palm
Of His Hands;
Do I trust Him?
Now ?
‘For God did not give us a spirit of timidity but a spirit of power and love and self control.’ ( 2 Timothy 1:7)
‘In Him we live and move and have our being.’ ( Acts 17:28)
Times of change,
Challenges abound;
Do I fear?
At any age,
I hear of
Courage with a C
But there is a C
Cancer which oft
may counter Courage
How do I face it?
Fight or flight ;
Combat or surrender
The only way I see it,
Trust in His Spirit
Of power , love and self control!
He is ever near,
Holds us in his loving arms,
As a Father to a son
Am I willing to share this pain
With him on the cross
As grace in abundance flows
Accept with courage
And when unbearable
Surrender
‘into your hands, Lord’
And take each day as a gift
Not forgetting
‘To live is Christ and
To die is gain ‘
I am assured that its better to surrender into His loving arms at all times, as
‘In him we live and move and have our being’ (Acts 17:28)
You have made us for yourself, O Lord, and our hearts are restless until they rest in you ! (St Augustine)
Who can fill it?
The more you try,
the more it becomes futile ;
Think of the best in the world ;
It’s all so temporary.
Nature in all its grandeur ,
Love of family,
Pursuits of interest
Romance of life .
Does success,
Money,
Position,
Power
Mean anything?
So how does one fill this void?
My friend,
Our hearts were made for Him.
In Him , you will find fulfilment
The love, peace and joy ,
that no one can give .
So if you are searching
Rest a while;
And know that
When you seek,You shall find
When you knock ,it shall be opened,
When you ask of Him,
It shall be granted.
He can fill every void ,
is ever present ,ever loving ,
He is the beginning and the end
The alpha and the omega,
And seeks to dwell in the silence of our hearts .
Do you have room for Him ?
Years ago I remember reading a comic strip with some humour to it…Slo Jo was a cowboy, who faced the Ketchup Kid…. It was not the usual gunfight however. Here the test was on who could down the burger faster… The Kid finished his burger rapidly….and then watched Slo Jo relishing his burger with Ketchup , taking his own time… the lesson for the Kid… , enjoy the burger…what is the hurry?
I think , many of us are immersed in work, and have a problem of time… we become busy, stressed and worry about work to be done…
I am sure we all had coffee/tea breaks..but was it like the Ketchup Kid or like Slo Jo
Often the best moments are when one actually savours the moments either alone or with friends.
I have tried coffee from roasted coffee beans ground and filtered…. with a dash Sheridan .
……slowly like Slo Jo…while I smell the coffee, savour the taste ..and appreciate the situation around me… my friends, colleagues, family or just connecting with nature …
Time passes by… I see some of my good friends who have worked hard and done well in their careers. One case stands out. Today he has been overwhelmed with multiple health problems. And worse still he has fractured his hip, and now compelled to bed rest.
I wonder at such traumatic changes. Does it really matter, how much I have achieved?
Have I savoured the times I enjoyed with family and friends.
Importantly have I looked at my eventual goal in life?
This will not be easily accepted. We plan for holidays and so much more.
“Do you know where you are going?” These are famous words asked by the renowned basketball player Pete Mavarich, also called ‘Pistol Pete’, because of his brilliance in the game. He continued “ I know where I am going, and am preparing for it” A week later he died.
Our lives change when we are aware of our destination.
I too am aware where I am going, and I will certainly ensure that I prepare for it every day.
Yet often when I even mention this, my family does not like to hear any of it.
But is not death certain? Do you fear it?
There is no need to fear. Life does not end , but only changes.
‘If our hope in Christ has been for this life only, we are the most unfortunate of all people.
But Christ has in fact been raised from the dead , the first-fruits of all who have fallen asleep. (1Corinthians 15:19,20)
When this perishable nature has put on imperishability, and when this mortal nature has put on immortality, then the words of scripture will come true: Death is swallowed up in victory. Death where is your victory? Death where is your sting? Now the sting of death is sin, and sin gets its power from the Law. So let us thank God for giving us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.
(1Corinthians 15:54-57)
Are you afraid?
Then remember these words of Jesus ‘ I am the living bread which comes down from heaven. Anyone who eats this bread will live for ever; and the bread that I shall give is my flesh for the life of the whole world.’ (John 5:51)
Jesus also assures us ‘ And know that I am with you always: yes to the end of time.’ (Matthew 28:20b)
So it certainly does not matter, how high or how fast one paces one’s life. Reality strikes, when one is faced with the inevitable. Reflective moments are necessary; so when you next take a coffee break, take time to smell the coffee and let your thoughts flow.
